I Don't Like Writing
Exploring my reluctance to write I don't like writing. It gives me jimmies. It makes me think when I'd rather just watch TV. Or rather it makes me not think, when I'd rather think about something -- *anything* , but the emptiness of non-thinking. So I have to force myself to do it, like a lazy person trying to lose weight. Cause I do like what writing does to me. I like to feel like I'm expressing myself, even if my only audience is my computer screen, my little black book, and my own, damned, dysfunctional head. It makes me feel clearer, somehow. Someday, I want to write the next great American novel. ~~Write~~ Right now I'm writing a bad personal introspection. I think, like a weight trainer has to build up their muscles with 20-pounders, for weeks, months, years, first, I probably have to build up my brain with simple, boring, but at the very least, honest text, before I can write those big volumes. It's still incredibly boring. I want to gouge my eyes o...